I've written about this before but I'm now wondering if it's not my ibs set all. On December the 10th 2016 I was going to see family and it's a long journey. I took buscopan as my bowels felt off it and half way through the trip my I've started up so I took an Imodium to be on the safe side. I started getting pain in my upper abdomen when opening my bowels and came here for advice but not much helped. It's now January the 6th 2017 and not much has changed except my bowel movements have become more erratic and the nausea is constant. I had a small lunch christmas day and a little to eat boxing day (so I know I've not over indulged) and have had roughly one meal a day since. I never really feel hungry just full and nauseous, even the thought of my favourite foods makes me nauseous. I take omeprozole for gerd and domperidone for nausea as and when needed(several times a day at the moment). I've had soft stool, normal formed stool and everything in between. There isn't any foods that are worse for me than others so I can eat just about what I want and it either upsets my bowel and stomach or it doesn't. I've given up caffeine and stick to decaf tea,coffee and peppermint tea. I have diverticular disease (yay me) and with is as well there isn't really anything that works for me. I have emetophobia which causes stress and anxiety 24/7 but I know when it's my ibs and not a tummy bug so I can control how my anxiety affects me. I was due to have a small bowel MRI in 2016 for chrons/collitus but couldn't go through with it as the bowel prep makes me too ill so since then I have refused all treatment from my consultant and doctor. I know it's a bit rash but after 24years of being poked and prodded and told it's in my head or there's nothing they can do I decided enough was enough and to go it alone. I limit going out to basic needs like getting shopping and visiting people close by, holidays are a huge problem and socialising is a no no. I'm at the end of my tether (literally) and have hit a brick wall, as my symptoms are getting worse and lasting longer each time. My partner and family understand to a certain degree but not completely, but I know that those of you on here that have managed to get this far reading my moans understand and can help.