😭 no more Mss. tough guy

[OneLump22]

I think I've reached my I-can-handle-this threshold. I'm trying not to cry, but I made a trip to Family Social Services to deal with their need for documents regarding my Medicare & extra help because I don't know how to send stuff electronically & ended up falling off my walker. Every one was decent & caring about it. My friend had offered to drive me to my appointments today, but she been doing that for the past & I didn't want to be a burden. And I wasn't expecting a fall. I've been asking for her help a lot because my R. artificial hip joint is now in the complete 💯 failure stage from being left go too long because of insurance issues & trying to get medical clearances from cancer treatments, et. It's been hard trying to keep on top of drs. offices, paperwork, et. I'd slip up & not make calls. Anyway, today I'm experiencing my first feelings of feeling depressed. 2 years I've gone through this MBC okay dokey, nothing to stress about I'm good. Not today 🥺😢😭

[MyMiracle13]

I am so sorry you are going through this but I’m glad that you are letting your feelings known instead of bottling them inside you. We all go through the “throwing in the towel” phase and when that happens to me, I pray and listen to songs of praise. The songs lift my spirit and I am able to go through another day.

[Andersl]

You're entitled to have down days. I'm a strong person too but I have down days. You have had a lot to deal with. Be kind to yourself.

Lots of love and best wishes x

[Hotlantaphatz]

Hey girl we all have those funky times that makes you cry and want to throw in the towel. I just went through this recently. But something came over me to not be so hard on myself, so what I can, and meditate or pray! When you realize you have done what you can you will feel better and the roller coaster ride will start over. Try to stay strong and don’t be afraid to ask for help. Look for a foundation that offer free rides and support for those with mobility issues.

[OneLump22]

Thank you all. Hopefully it's done raining on my parade. 🫂

[Best521]

I am very sorry this happened to you today. How frightening and overwhelming all of this can be at times. However I have to say, WOW, you are one strong lady to undertake a trip like that on your walker by yourself. Then after falling, you got back up and kept going. I’m impressed.

[Bettybuckets]

I’m sorry it’s almost too much to endure. You have done 2 years without depression. That is an accomplishment… and reason to think this is just a small dip in mood which will come back up after a break. Why don’t you take a day to just stay tucked in bed. Especially a rainy day. Just stay tucked in. That’s prob bad advice… it just what I want to do. But in any case, people want to pitch in and help you because they love you. Hope that helps.

[OneLump22 in reply to Bettybuckets]

Thanks. All of you. I curled up in bed & turned on Tubi. Found an upload of the old Dean Martin Celebrity Roast show. The episode where they were roasting Bob Hope. Got an hour's worth of laughs & fell asleep. CT FLO scans tomorrow. It's short notice, but I asked a friend if she would be able to drive me 🤞she said she might. She's waiting for delivery of a new fridge. If not, I'll suck it up. We have all kinds of med transportation, but they all require one weeks advance notice of your appointment. Nobody does stand by service.

[LibraryGeek]

What a good idea to find something to make you laugh. Hope you feel better soon- you’ve got this.

Jackie x

[Totheriver]

hope everything goes okay for you💕

[mariootsi]

Listen, you are strong and will make it through this difficult time. We all feel lost and down at times. But somehow overcome or we wouldn't still be here. I am learning that if we need help we need to ask without guilt. It's hard . Hopefully you aren't in touch pain from your hip. I'm so sorry you went through all this. Sending hugs and prayers.

[fancydog]

I'm praying that the need for the avalanche of things slow down for you. I get overwhelmed easily when too many issues suddenly present themselves. We all get down at times when change comes and it appears that we have too many hoops to jump through. Jump through what you can and save the rest for another day, it all works out for the best.🙏

[PJBinMI]

Down times are familiar to me, too! Another "strong woman," but this lousy rotten cancer is stress, and always there! If the cancer center where your onc is has palliative care and/or social workers, one of them might be able to line up transportation for you, and help with getting the paperwork you need put together and sent to Family Social Services. You could call and ask! My first appt with the palliative care nurse was amazing! lasted over an hour and covered stuff about all my health needs. She prescribed an oral med that got my itchy rash controlled within a month, after several allergists and dermatologists did not help me get that controlled! Having daily troublesome physical pain, limitations, etc, on top of this cancer is sooo stressful! We're all entitled to some tears, anger, and down time! And as you just experienced, humor and laughter sure help!

[viennagirl]

Sorry to hear that you are facing so many struggles. It definitely isn't easy getting older and having the burden of mbc on top of that. I hope their are more happy bright days ahead for you. Hugs Marlene

[NPmary]

I'm so sorry for all you are going through ❤

[Godbeforme]

if there's anyway I can help with the electronic thing, I will. I do know how to download and send things to email addresses. you can email me at thechurchasleftthebuilding@ yahoo.com if I can help you. God bless you, He always makes a way where there seems no way and I am praying right now that He heals you, makes you strong and able to handle everything, in Jesus name I ask these things for you, amen! Randi

[Kruza]

I am so sorry that you are going through this. You are allowed to wallow but please don't pitch a tent there. Walk through, there is light at the end of the tunnel, besides you have already done the work. Kudos to you for keeping up the fight. But right now, give yourself GRACE.

[Shafight]

I’m so sorry. And you were just trying not to be a burden. I hope you’re ok

[OneLump22 in reply to Shafight]

One way or another I will be.Maybe you all have seen this. I don't watch. Can't stand reality t v, but this girl rocks

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[Best521 in reply to OneLump22]

She does rock. She is great 😄

[RLN-overcomer]

Sister/Warrior I am sooo sorry to hear of your fall, and the frustration with dealing with our medical bureacracy. I am happy to know you have a wonderful friend who is a blessing in your life .I know you would do the same for her. Always ask when you need help,the answer may be, no,but most likely it will be yessss, as your friend has done for you in the past. I pray your problems will be alleviated ASAP Amen P.s XOXO to you,and your loyal friend🙏