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[wendywoo66]

By the way I have smoked two more since then so in total three today

[Atlantida 3 YEAR WINNER]

You bought ten, right? And smoked three. I would definitely give the remaining seven to a trusted friend and ask for her/his help in safekeeping those seven and remind me along the way why I'm awesome because I'm trying hard despite the hardships. That's what I would do, no doubt about it.

Chin up! This is a road with many ups and downs, but for every down, there's a highly satisfying up.

[bandit2]

U know what the!!!!! to the relapse, u have to ask yourself is this my time to quitt and if not dont be ashamed or feel like crap. U have to be mentally as well as physically ready for all the crap u r going to go thru. Im being honest had I known what I would have been in for I wouldnt have quit however I had no choice. The decision was made for me I had a mouthful of stitches and scared to smoke. I tell u its been the hardest thing Ive ever done and I aint going to candy coat anything. I dont know how long u have been smoking or the amount.

I do feel that if u tempted so easily u shld re-evaluate your quit and maybe u need NRT to help you, no shame in that either, there are lots on here who used help wether it be gum, sprays, e-cigs whatever floats your boat.

My point being do what is best for you and when u r ready or have no choice like me u get an inner strength u didnt know u had to help you. Ive had friggin headaches and lack of sleep for 11 weeks now, death has to be more merciful but I just take one day at a time and the people on here have helped me.

Try to find someone who is at the same point as u or maybe a little further along so u dont feel alone. I did I found Madame who is 11 weeks just like me we bitch back and forth and give eachother strength. Make a post and ask for all the newbies to drop u a line, The buddy system helped me, it might u too. ONLY IF U R READY TO FACE THE DEMON- NICOTINE he is super powerful and a bitch to beat. Keep in touch read my post if it helps. I will always be straight up and tell u the truth no BS from me. Pitty parties are allowed lmao Ive had a few.

[wendywoo66 LONG TERM WINNER in reply to bandit2]

Thanks for your honesty but. I am annoyed with myself but not feeling pity. Youre right though nicotine addiction is a hell of thing to beat. I have been smoking for nearly forty years twenty a day by the way. Ive been having chest problems you know constant chest infections and recently needed an inhaler after a bad reaction to an e cig. I will keep going I know I can do it as ive stopped for two year twice in the past. Rumour has it fags are going up to a tenner a packet in April. Smoking is no longer an option.

[bandit2 in reply to wendywoo66]

I live in Canada and we already pay 10.00 per pack 90.00 plus per carton nless u smoke the native ones (bags) like me 10,00 for 200 but u never know what u r smoking they are not regulated by the gov. Good for you now u sound positive. No more poor me. I still think u shld do a post and find others who r newbies and walk the walk together it really helps and u get to bitch fest. All quits are different u know that since u did it before. ? knowing what u go thru to quit how could go back to smoking? just curious cause if I dont make it thats it for me I will smoke til I die. I would never put my body thru this hell again. Im not that mean. Maybe your quit will be easier since your body has been thru it once before and before. Keep me up to date and feel no way to swear your head off lol.

[Ickytoots1 LONG TERM WINNER in reply to bandit2]

Your bit tough bandit I'm just glad I found it easy to quit my 20a day habit for 22years. Brushed my teeth and stopped. Sorry your having such a hard time pal ... Ps loved your hard love approach it's funny x!! Good luck with your quit xx

[bandit2 in reply to Ickytoots1]

Yes I am a bit tough but I would rather know all the pitfalls in front of me and then decide which way to go. I dont candy coat and when I see someone woe is me they need a reality check. Not everyone can do cold turkey and thats ok but know your limitations and dont be afraid to use an aid. Some people need this, I remember Peter Falk Columbo he kept a ciggie behind his ear at all times. Held it played with it but never lit it up because back then there was no patch, spray, lozenge I think there was gum but it was nasty tasting. I wish I could have an easy time like you but Mr nic wants me to pay for the 40yrs of smoking and then cutting him off no warning to the old guy. Now he is pissed at me lol Keep on going u r great and an inspiration to us all

[iris8 8 MONTH WINNER]

I've took some advice there, reach out to newbies. A week today, my sleep disturbed and thinking increasing (never a good sign!) Quitting 2 mths after a break-up, not sure what parts the quitting or moving on? Challenge: how to do this lovingly, my default mode can turn it into; 'what a f**k up'; starting with smoking, to all areas of life. Typing that, I know it's futile but these askewed core beliefs do like to come out and play in periods of change. I'm using NRT (gum); not sure i'd be a week in otherwise? This attempt feels different as I'm not just rattling on my own. Peace...one day! :O)

[Ickytoots1 LONG TERM WINNER in reply to iris8]

Every time I had a craving I came on hear I spent many nights not sleeping and worse was the nightmares but you will get there first week is the toughest but

It gets easier!!! Keep up the

Great work xx

[bandit2 in reply to iris8]

good for you find a buddy and do your quit together or even a group of you. All the quits will be different but some might be the same. I say this with all my heart ex's are ex's for a reason, it could be they were comfortable and now u have lost 2 comforts but were they really. Obviously he pissed u off and smoking pisses us all off once we stop. When we smoked it was all hunky dorey and life was great, same with your beau dont pick it apart and its ok.

U r now free of two crutches in your life. Men are a dime a dozen so dont fret u will find a new and better one and not smoking is a plus because smokers are a very small minority and whether u want to rent a place or find a man u have more of a choice as a non-smoker.

Using NRT does not make u weak in fact its a good thing u realize u need help otherwise u may be putting limitations your body isnt ready for. Slow and steady keep the pace. Slow and steady u will finish the race lol

[bandit2 in reply to iris8]

feel free to rattle, rant rave whatever floats your boat at the time. Holding things in only festers let it out shout to the world. Im sad I feel like crap. am I doing the right thing. will anyone want to be around me. Why am being so b-i-zitchy. Its ok to feel like this, god knows I did. There were days I wanted to cash in and smoke more times than I can count however I had my buddy who I swore at, yelled at ranted and raved til I got it all out and then I would listen to her. We helped eachother thru the bad days. Look at the posts there are many newbies in your shoes reach out to them, they need help too. Its not a one man show here, help is at your finger tips so start typing my friend, keep those hands occupied. Always there is u need me