Following on from my near miss a week ago, circumstances continued to cause my mood to deteriorate & yesterday I crashed & burned. Just like previous occasions where I relapsed, I was long past the nicotine addiction & I wasn't "craving" a cigarette. I only wanted something/anything that would calm the turbulence I was feeling. Even though my logic kept saying buying cigarettes won't help, I felt instinctively driven to ease the torment with a cigarette.
I think my answers will come from Emjays post "Understanding the feel good chemicals within the brain". I only wish I had read this earlier.
I may need to break this down to a series of posts because it may become quite lengthy. For those like me who are/were more than 2 months free of nicotine in any form yet continue to struggle, as I have, this may be of some assistance. You may also benefit from Emjay's post as well as the presentation & book from the author Loretta Breuning. Please understand that what I'm posting is from a layman's perspective & judge for yourself whether it may apply to you.