Don't know where to turn...

[HaBeBe7]

I have struggled with mental illness my whole life. When I moved to Texas from another state, I lost my insurance, had to stop all my medications ( including an anti convulsant drug I was prescribed for seizures ) and I have no access to mental health ( or any health ) services now. About a year and a half ago ( while I was trying to taper off some of my medications ) I lost control of myself and hit my partner ( a one time incident - something I would NEVER do if I were in my "right mind" ) Well, my partner thought it would be a good idea to call "911". He thought they would take me into psychiatric care. Nope - they immediately arrested me. I was thrown in jail ( I don't even know for how many days exactly ) which brings me to my point/ question : I was withdrawing from medications I could have easily died from. I definitely experienced MULTIPLE seizures and psychosis while locked up. I know the first few days of coming off my meds HAD to be BAD since once out of jail, it was another 6 months before I started even "thinking clearly". I have basically NO recollection from my time there ( other than trauma flashbacks that still haunt me ). I feel like a gross injustice happened to me. I don't understand why I didn't receive proper medical attention. Also, my partner made the HUGE mistake of giving "controlled substance" medication to the arresting officers ( thinking my medication would be given to me??? Idfk... ) but obviously, I never saw these meds again. What can I do if anything? I've thought about contacting a lawyer but feel overwhelmed because I feel like "I can't prove anything" especially if I can't even remember everything that happened. I was literally "out of mind"... which again, leads me to ask : "wtf wasn't I taken to the hospital?" How can I pick up the pieces of my life? Where do I even begin when I can't even get an appointment with a psychiatrist ( I tried calling a facility in my area everyday for MONTHS, leaving messages- begging for help & I never received a call back )