Can't Let Go...

[FarmLady1967]

I'm 57 years old and still struggling with the shame and low self worth of sexual abuse I suffered during my childhood years from my brother and father. I've had mostly bad experiences with men and it's very hard for me to trust anyone. The abuse was not my fault, but even today I still blame myself. I'm tired of putting on a fake smile and pretending like everything is okay when the abuse is still very real to me. I don't know how to let go of the past, I feel like my abuser's stole something from me that I can never get back. I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive and forget. My life is passing me by and I am angry at what my abuser's stole from me. I just want to love and forgive myself but it seems impossible. Does anyone understand??