Finding my past

[BloomingSunflower143]

I wasn't sure if I even deserved to write in this community. I guess it took me several years to realize what post traumatic stress was and that I may have it. Maybe reassurance is something that I need right now, I don't know but bear with me. I grew up and watched someone I loved get hurt in instances and there was nothing that I could do. Those moments were small, they were not overly frequent and yet it still lingers in my mind years later when I shouldn't even remember those moments given that I was just a kid then. I guess maybe it took me replaying it in my head in random moments throughout the years and constant worrying once I had moved to realize how it affects me. For everyone else's sake I choose not to bring it up, because it seems like I'm the only one who remembers those moments. Aside from that there were moments that have impacted me like situations with a friend group, although I have moved on from that, it still worries me that I may lose a friend or have to experience almost losing a friend I care about deeply. I tried to trace where my anxiety and communication skills (or lack there of) has stemmed from and going back to the past definitely was not something I thought I'd do. I hope that admitting this to someone will help in some way. Thank you to all those that read through this, it really means more than you know

[aliciamariah]

I definitely wish somebody responded to you sooner but reading your story and just for starters I want you to know even though it might seem like people around you don’t see it how you doesn’t make your feelings any less valid what happen traumatized you made you remember the helpless feeling you once felt that can cause a fear throughout life because you know we never wanna feel helpless again you know so it’s understandable and it lingers which in a weird way you should dismiss it because it was something you experienced so don’t let anyone make you feel little able how you are still dealing with it throughout the years because that’s not fair to yourself and the emotions that came with your experience