I have had my worst week so far. I am not coping without Les at all.
My daughter has moved her boyfriend in and my house doesn't appear to be my house any more. He asked if he could move in and I don't remember saying "yes". This is horrendous I suddenly don't exist. To be fair Paul is a nice person. I hate being rail-roaded.
I went to see my doctor yesterday and can't stop crying. I have cried now for 3 days and can't have many tears left but they are still welling up. I am being totally selfish as I just don't want to be here. I am tired and lack any form of energy whatsoever.
I am sorry I am so full of self-pity. I have no control. I thought when I locked my front door it was my space and now it isn't. If I try to speak to my daughter she just yells at me and now I don't have the strength to speak to her as she is so focussed on her relationship.
I so need Les to help me but I know he can't.
Sorry to post this just as we have some nice weather again and most of us will be enjoying the warmth.
Perhaps this is another form of grieving. Feeling so out of control. Who knows as we all are experiencing different feelings.
Love and hugs to everyone