Hiatus - A song for those gone and for those who wait

[Kevin_1]

This is for all of us, but especially for those who are temporarily seperated form their loved one.

A Hiatus

You have gone.

Leaving gifts, images, for me.

Of kissing under the rain protecting bridge.

We found,

running from the wheat field of our long love making.

Of Child birthing and arguments. Laughing, rearing, growing, struggling-us-secure.

Of moonlight nights and a glass of wine... Looking into our eyes.

Being one, for a moment.

You are gone, a hiatus unplanned.

In some other place I will kiss you under some other bridge.

Until then, then.

A hiatus, that’s all.

A small gap, between us, for now.

It will pass.

Everything does.

Notes: A hiatus is incorrect English. Who cares?!

[Willow_rob]

My ode to Mary,

Lover

Mother

Best friend

Wife.

I will never forget her when her time comes. Rob

[easterncedar]

Oh, Kevin. That is beautiful. So moving. Words fail, but I needed that just now. That you posted is sweet. We've missed you. Thanks. Hugs. Love and peace, ec/ Sarah

[Kevin_1 in reply to easterncedar]

Hi Sarah

Waving warmly in your direction

I hope things are as best as may be for you.

At least you have snow!

[salem16]

Sad. I have been up and down and crying. I have been going through my own hell my liver is currently holding go every 6 months doc university of Alberta hospital for checkups costs how long I don’t know living on pension. Also have problems vein blockage had surgery. Current torn cartilage when at gym machine malfunction I hurt. Recently had bronchitis very bad just over it. Had shot for pneumonia. People here have died from it. It seems like I go a few steps forward and 10 back I am a fighter. I go often to see my husband sick or not extremely hard on me physically. I feel down he is only 65. I ask myself how he got this and why. I break down no one to really share with.

[Kevin_1 in reply to salem16]

Hi Salem 66

Gosh, you have it full on.

I am so sorry.

Do you have any care support coming in?

Can a friend 'sit' so you can get a couple of hours off for yourself?

You can share with us!

Being a carer is a lonely business. Those who have not done it so often don't get it.

Warmly

Kevin

[salem16 in reply to Kevin_1]

No support

[Kevin_1 in reply to salem16]

No way of getting any?

That's really hard... I don't know what services are available where you are.

Is there really nothing?

Concerned

Kevin

[salem16 in reply to Kevin_1]

Nothing

[Kevin_1 in reply to salem16]

Hi Shelley

I am speechless.

I thought Alberta had some free services. Clearly not.

I've just read some other threads where folk have reached out to you.

All I can say is what they have said. My heart goes out to you both and I admire your fortitude, as if you had a choice anyway.

There is the support here. But, that doesn't help with the daily slog.

Best to you

We are here for you.

Kevin

[Hidden in reply to salem16]

Hi Salem... l don't know how we manage at times, but l know from personal experience that if l did not cry, l would surely drown from the tears hiding within. Muddling through the puddles of life is miserable. My heart is with you. Sending gentle hugs to you & hubby... Granni B

[Zeberdee]

Have said it before I rarely post now but check the forum everyday. I have read your words and tears fall. Nice to see you back xx

[salem16 in reply to Zeberdee]

Thanks. I try to deal with issues I get very down at times. I also have my own health issues which one of them serious. I grateful for each day.

[Katiebow]

What a truly touching poem Kevin, poems have a way of expressing emotion like no other form of writing.

Much love

Kate xx

[jamesmoffat]

a life well lived

[Kevin_1 in reply to jamesmoffat]

And always remembered.

Like your beautiful maths and paintings.

[Kevin_1]

Thank you all, for your replies.

Many tears fell in the writing of it.

[doglington]

Beautiful and very moving. Brought tears to my eyes.

Love Jean xxx

[Kevin_1 in reply to doglington]

Hi Jean

I plan to ask one of Liz's nieces to read it at her funeral for me... I could not, without a bath towel to mop the tears.

I thought to share it here as something for all of us facing so much loss.

Hugs to you Jean

Warmly

Kevin

xxx

[doglington in reply to Kevin_1]

It will be perfect for the funeral. Its good to consider ways to personalise it well ahead.

I couldn't read my eulogy either. Our daughter did it.

Give my love to Liz too.

Hugs from Jean xx

[Kevin_1 in reply to doglington]

I will Jean

I actually wrote it for all the lovely people here who had lost wives or husbands... I was going through posts and was moved by the strength and pain.

Hugs

xx

[Kevin_1]

Sorry this post was in the wrong place - I have moved it up the thread.

[salem16]

I often ask myself why god doesn’t answer. If I really said how many tears I shed more than anyone would guess. At night I feel so alone scared of what’s to come when I wake. I put my other face on when I get up.

[Kevin_1]

Hello Salem16

"At night I feel so alone scared of what’s to come when I wake. I put my other face on when I get up. "

Yes, that is what we do.

Sometimes, when things are bad, my nights are so full of fears and exhaustion that I have nightmares and dread going to sleep.

In the morning we get up and do what we can.

I do hope you have ways of getting rest and time off during the day. It is essential for carers to get this.

Warmly

Kevin

[Marie_14]

Thanks for sharing Kevin. It is beautiful. As you say who cares if the English is not correct. Not the group that's for sure!

Hugs to you.

Marie x

[Kevin_1 in reply to Marie_14]

Thanks for being there Marie

Hugs

xx

'ahiatus' said as if speagking Latin (with Italian accent as it should be) becomes an invocation, or so it was intended.

[Birdman34265]

Hi Kevin , you are a inspiration to us all,it nice to express our feelings

into words, sometimes it's the past memories and our love for each other which drives us every day we wake to meet the challenge

Bless you . Peter and Kathy

[Kevin_1 in reply to Birdman34265]

Thank you

And waving hello to you both

Warmly

Kevin

[Hidden]

Lovely Kevin, Sending gentle hugs... Granni B