A light in the night and coping with heat.

[Kevin_1]

I do like this heatwave.

It's made me eat less.

I work less hard during the day.

And it is too hot to sleep so I sit in the garden listening to the water feature and the night sounds with my moggie close by stretched out in the cool doing what she does best... Snoozing. Every now and then she gets up and meows at me to say how much she is enjoying it and then she creeps off to find another place to stretch out.

Last night I again lit the lamp for those who have passed and their loved ones and sat remembering. Peaceful, holding and letting go. My thoughts mere moths about the lamp.

[easterncedar]

That's just lovely, Kevin. Simply reading your words brings a peaceful feeling to my heart.

Love,

Sarah

[Kevin_1 in reply to easterncedar]

Hi Sarah

I do hope your world is coming together slowly at least.

Wishing you everything you need right now.

Warmly

Kevin

xx

[easterncedar in reply to Kevin_1]

Thank you, Kevin. You have such a warm heart.

[raincitygirl]

Kevin, that's beautiful

What a lovely place to spend the night.

We have a heat wave too and its draining.

But that image is cool and peaceful.

Thinking of you now, 9:30 pm your time;

You'll be out there listening to the moths...

🦋🌜🌙🍃💙

Anne G

[Kevin_1 in reply to raincitygirl]

It's lovely - I'm just about to shut down for my quiet vigil. That sounds too important, perhaps I should say sitting in the quiet.

I hope this doesn't sound hackneyed, but with so much pain and loss I work at finding spaces and meanings to find peace and acceptance.

Tonight it's siting on the front porch... Moggie wants to neighbour watch. It's the big black and white tom I think... They have almost finished negotiating boundaries. For now.

Early day's for you Anne... Just wishing you the best that might come.

Warmly

xx

[Satt2015]

Bless you Kevin! Your so so sweet!

I love the photo

Ps I hate this weather

I still work like a dog and eat too much x

[Kevin_1]

Waiving at you Amanda,

You do work very hard... And your skinny!!!

Do take care of yourself. I know your probably not through the roller coaster with your Dad yet.

Thinking of you

Hugs

Kevin

xxx

PS and to your amazing Mum too

[Satt2015 in reply to Kevin_1]

Lol Kevin, if only I was ‘skinny’ or actually I’d prefer slim!

I eat the wrong stuff and pig out under stress no matter the weather x

[NanBabs]

Lovely calm peaceful thoughts Kevin. I`ve been wondering how you and Liz are.

xx

[Kevin_1 in reply to NanBabs]

Hi NanB

We are on a plateau. Liz still has this anger thing and she is so very unhappy not living at home and all of the loss etc.

But she came home yesterday and curled up with me in front of the portable air conditioner sometimes watching a film at others just the two of us together in silence.

A calm between storms. Love and loss together.

One of the cruel things about PSP is the loss of ability to learn. There is so much I could do to help her find acceptance and peace, but my attempts are like rain drops on a waxy leaf. At least love get's through.

How are things going for you?

Waiving warmly

Kevin

[JantheNana]

Kevin you are right about the inability to learn.I never thought about it in those terms. Don suffered so much from apathy ( or at least I suffered from his apathy). Once I said to him that I never would have thought he would be one to give up. I hate myself now for having said it.

As you said,Love gets through. I hope and pray mine did. Janet

[Kevin_1 in reply to JantheNana]

Hi Janet

I'm sure it would have.

There's something about it. Even when Liz is all but unreachable because of her mood a hug works wonders.

If I blamed myself for every mistake or misplaced words I would be buried deep by the size of the list.

All we can ever do is the best we can.

Hugs to you.

I hope you are finding a path through this difficult time.

Warmly

Kevin

[NanBabs]

Lovely words and thoughts yet again Kevin - you are gifted ! It must be really tough for Liz as she seems to have quite a degree of awareness.

I`m OK thanks - I think. Inevitably I have days when I wonder if I made the right choices i.e. should I have struggled on with P at home, should I have visited him twice daily, should I have let them take him into hospital at the end … etc.

I know you are trying to enjoy the time you have and that is absolutely the right thing to do.

Love to you both xx

[daddyt]

Thank you for those lovely words and for thinking about all of us. I have a happy place similar to yours, which I call The Sanctuary.

Peacefully,

Tim

[Kevin_1 in reply to daddyt]

Nice one Tim

How're things going?

Best to you

Kevin

[NanBabs]

Thank you.

xx