And it is too hot to sleep so I sit in the garden listening to the water feature and the night sounds with my moggie close by stretched out in the cool doing what she does best... Snoozing. Every now and then she gets up and meows at me to say how much she is enjoying it and then she creeps off to find another place to stretch out.
Last night I again lit the lamp for those who have passed and their loved ones and sat remembering. Peaceful, holding and letting go. My thoughts mere moths about the lamp.
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It's lovely - I'm just about to shut down for my quiet vigil. That sounds too important, perhaps I should say sitting in the quiet.
I hope this doesn't sound hackneyed, but with so much pain and loss I work at finding spaces and meanings to find peace and acceptance.
Tonight it's siting on the front porch... Moggie wants to neighbour watch. It's the big black and white tom I think... They have almost finished negotiating boundaries. For now.
Early day's for you Anne... Just wishing you the best that might come.
We are on a plateau. Liz still has this anger thing and she is so very unhappy not living at home and all of the loss etc.
But she came home yesterday and curled up with me in front of the portable air conditioner sometimes watching a film at others just the two of us together in silence.
A calm between storms. Love and loss together.
One of the cruel things about PSP is the loss of ability to learn. There is so much I could do to help her find acceptance and peace, but my attempts are like rain drops on a waxy leaf. At least love get's through.
Kevin you are right about the inability to learn.I never thought about it in those terms. Don suffered so much from apathy ( or at least I suffered from his apathy). Once I said to him that I never would have thought he would be one to give up. I hate myself now for having said it.
As you said,Love gets through. I hope and pray mine did. Janet
Lovely words and thoughts yet again Kevin - you are gifted ! It must be really tough for Liz as she seems to have quite a degree of awareness.
I`m OK thanks - I think. Inevitably I have days when I wonder if I made the right choices i.e. should I have struggled on with P at home, should I have visited him twice daily, should I have let them take him into hospital at the end … etc.
I know you are trying to enjoy the time you have and that is absolutely the right thing to do.
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