My partner J went into respite last Thursday at a local care home , he has attended daycare there so familiar with staff etc but after dropping him off and leaving him there I drove to the seafront and cried my eyes out.
Today I popped in to see how things were going as I miss him terribly (not the PSP) I wanted to tell him that I love him so much. He was not in a very good way although pleased to see me and gave me a tight hug. He was clean etc nothing wrong with that but I noticed he was thinner and pulling terrible mouth shapes and saliver pooling in his mouth.
I just feel heartbroken for the situation and the pain its causing to both of us. I am now back home sitting by myself feeling sad and awful such heartache I might cry again .