Anyone on here seeing a therapist or counselor to help navigate your situation? Is your parter? I believe that by nature, men tend to avoid seeking help from a therapist. I was seeing a therapist but it felt like all I did was sit there and cry. I’m debating if I should give it another try. I don’t want to talk about things…but when I think of his last breath, I just want to cry and I wonder if that’s something I will forever have with me. After all, we are all going through something traumatic.
Once again, your musings have moved my emotions, whatever emotions exist in this hard casing. After my father died in a global pandemic (14th person to die of COVID-19 in Oregon), I found it hard to process the loss. I saw a counselor with the goal of getting myself to cry( which I'd only done once since 1976). One year later I had produced one single tear from my left eye and later one tear from my right eye. I sensed that this was the best I was going to do, so I called this success and left counseling. I hope you find what you need.
I’m sorry to hear about your dad. I’m glad you tried counseling. At least we tried it. But I felt the same way you did…this is as good as it’s going to get. Thank you for continuing to fight.