Help medical treatment

[Janefw505]

I am 55 years old and my ADDHD is debilitating without my medication. I lost my health insurance in 2018 and had to apply for Medicaid. My doctor of 25+ years does Medicare not Medicaid. I've never had any health problems associated with stimulants. I exhausted my savings on my Dr as I have PSTD, ANXIETY DISORDER ALSO. My problem is there are no specialists in ADDHD IN ILLINOIS ESPECIALLY THAT TAKE MEDICAIDE. I AM FORCED TO A COMMUNITY RESOURCE LPN WHO WILL NOT PRESCRIBE VYVANSE AND PROVIGIL. I TAKE BOTH. EVEN THOUGH I AM HUMILIATED BY DRUG TESTS EVERY MONTH! MY QUALITY OF LIFE IS DETERIORATING. SHOULD HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED AS KID BUT ONE OF 11 CHILDREN. LITTLE MEDICAL CARE. IVE BEEN ON SAME MEDS FOR 25 YEARS WHAT RECOURSE DO I HAVE?? WHETHER LPN DOESNT BELIEVE IN ADDHD OR. DRUGEES MISUSE IT THAT ISNT MY FAULT! PLEASE ANY ADVISE MIGHT ADD MORE YEARS TO MY LIFE. EVERY AWEFUL QUALITY OF ADDHD IS REARING ITS UGLY HEAD. ANY ADVISE PLEASE