Hi all. I am really reaching my limits with this. I cannot find a dose of pred that works....23.5....I had one great day but everything tanked (rinse and repeat for months). I am due to go on Actemra...just not sure when and now I have this skin thing that I thought was improving with oral and topical antibiotics that might delay that. The healing might have stalled. I need to find a derm which I am working on. Last night I hit a wall....it's not just the pain that is the issue.....I can handle a fair amount after 30 plus years of autoimmune issues. But it's the fact that there IS a high level of pain with little relief or breaks on top of weak muscles and joints and a fatigue like no other. I shake....I don't feel secure on my feet. I can't remember anything and I am losing my hair to boot. My OA is so much worse as well. So my knees are thr worst they have been. I know many here have dealt with this so much longer than I and dealt with more but I think it's getting to me that I moved here about a year and a half ago to a perfect new house.....but it's a wreck and that is depressing. I also never got the chance to learn about the area or really meet anyone. I moved to Delaware from Maryland I had been on a grest block for 20 years and we were like one big family. That won't happen here which is ok...but I did want to do things. Can't. Anyway it hits me hard at times.
My friends don't understand what this is. I know when I had to go on disability.some relationships changed. That was hard for lots of reasons...(job) great loss for me. Now this is so much worse. So there are a few people I want to understand what this really is..plus who knows I wish I had heard of it before I developed it. So I thought a video would be best. I know someone posted some and I have looked for them but have not found them. If you know of any ....shorter ones...could you send me the links. I would really appreciate it.
Sorry for the big whine....it wins sometimes. I think also going from lock down to downsizing to selling my house to buying my new house and moving and going right into PMR has just complicated it more. I do ok for a bit and this place and you have been the most positive thing....but you can still hit a wall.
Thanks for your suggestions. Please take care of yourselves.
Be well.