I wish there was a "Reply All" button ! I just wanted to thank all of you who responded to my Post "How Much Can I Bear?". Your comforting words and sympathy has meant so much to me at what has been the most difficult and harrowing time of my life.
I have always known this was an amazingly supportive community and you have proved yourself yet again.
The Memorial Celebration a week ago today (photo attached of the lawn with coloured rugs before the 300 or so people arrived) was cathartic and beautiful. So many people spoke and I managed to get through my poem written especially for him with only a couple of breakdowns....... My son (my grandson's father) is a muso and so the Celebration started with "Blackbird" and ended with "Lean on Me". I felt privilged to be present.
I upped my steroids to 5 mgs to get me through as some of you suggested and I am now back on 3 mgs where I have been for some weeks. I am now back on 3mgs - the exhaustion of grief and adrenal insufficiency is pretty debilitating but simply has to be got through.
The support from friends and my amazing family has been incredible but knowing that you too my H/U Family are there for me is wonderful,
Thank You..