It will be one or two YEARS before I get the appointment with the specialist. I've done some reading on the drugs offered and am not convinced they are worth the risk. Feel really down. I was going to say I felt shattered, but that seemed like an unfortunate word choice given the situation. I think the worst part of all this is the loss of control. This is not the way I wanted to spend the last years of my life. This is the time when we should be devoting more time to things of the mind and the spirit, not concentrating on keeping a weakening body going.