Yet another half hearted GP appointment at my practice though with a new GP. The idea being a joint decision with my old GP to have a new mind to look at me. I did my bit for speaking up about B12 and lack of treatment and moves afoot by PAS re recent events and and told her about Dr Chandy and his meticulous research. She knew diddly squat about B12 so I carried on telling her about it. I told her I'm self medicating with injections - shock horror on her face. How, why, where did I get my stuff from. So I told all as I don't really care any more what they think. I said I want some quality of life back after years of it quietly dwindling away to zilch. I assured her it was all legit and legal. I could tell she was curious, though couldn't or wouldn't admit it. Her only comment was there's no known data on it's consequences. I assured her there was.
I really needed to let her know I was as capable as her of doing research and understanding things that they only think they can do! She was quite a nice person but limited so I'm probably going nowhere again. However doing some basic bloods again so see how it goes.
It's gone on my med records though about self injecting.
Also had poor endo appointment since I last posted. She was a locum and not who I was meant to be seeing. She was only interested in my Osteoporosis which wasn't what I was referred for, which was the awful never ending fatigue for the last 15 years. She knew nothing about B12 either and wasn't interested or rather said it wasn't her field! All bloods 'normal' but no checking of cortisol levels done there so I'm probably going to have to go private for that as per Dr C's advice.
I despair at their apathy and indifference. So still looking for my Doc Martin!!
CT scan tomorrow re digestive problems and another eye scan in Feb for my deteriorating sight in left eye. Yet another thing no one can diagnose. It's not macular or glaucoma. Surely I can't be that weird - can I? But I feel as if I'm imagining all this somethimes or I'm in a really bad dream and hope I will wake up and it will all be gone and I'll be me again.
Thank you for letting me vent otherwise I can feel very lonely lately.
Time for bed and warmth.