Woke up today feeling miserable. As the pain in my foot from the operation, gets less acute, I realise that the other pains I have aren't going to get any less. I mean, I knew that, it's just that it struck me today, as I woke up with bad pain in my hands. How do we keep going, knowing its probably going to be the same every day? People see me looking normal, and if I say my hands hurt, or my feet they say - oh have a rest, or put your feet up. I know they're being sympathetic but they think it'll go away. Oh it's just so relentless sometimes. I'm tired of it. I'm too young for pain every day. Well maybe tomorrow will be better. Back to work, so at least i will be busy and distracted.