Hello fellow painfriends i am strong , i can cope with pain,i use many tools and do not stay in bed all day or on my butt..BUT ..I'm tired , I'm worn out and yes getting down ,with this constant pain from my back to my feet,an aching burning soreness with sharp hung up-ness that never leaves ,no pain meds touch it they just make me woosy which is probably what they are best at ..chilling me lol.(gabapentin 3 x 3daily + cocodomal 3x2 daily) But in all seriousness I am not sleeping properly,waking 3-4 times.My leg wakes me with grabbing/cramp like pain and numbness . Every step ,every bend is painful.Im having to go up stairs on all fours most days.Shopping is only possible when im leant over a trolley and with assistance ,or online lol. I Know the gist is its nerve pain, signals being sent that shouldn't be ,BUT that doesn't make the pain any less .I want to work but I can't guarantee one day to the next how tolerable my pain will be .Not much good for an employer ! Im lucky if i can do my own household jobs. i am worn out from it.
Latest Mri shows no further deterioration from my fall in 2009,its just nerve damage.
I was so active,walked 5-7 miles a day in my job as a dog warden,went to the gym 3+ a week ,did weights,swimming,cycled all over the place. I can't swim proper strokes any more ,Ive tried doing gym exercises in the pool and it irritates things making it very painful. I do go out on my bike for 30 mins when I can as cycling hurts less than walking ,I have made many adjustments to my cycle to make it as comfortable as possible, I use a swiss ball and bands as much as possible at home and a mini cycle (feet only thing)to stay active..but the pain is constant and any activity increases it.
I am so down ,my life seems to gone tits up and as hard as I try ,my motivation just disappears . I just don't know what else I can do. I have worked my whole life and I cant get used to not doing so .
ok rant over
love and best wishes to all x