Here I am awake in pain because of trying to ignore my body and thinking it will suddenly let me.
All of my great ideas to manage my pain days allow myself the rest up time kaput. I am waging a war against myself, pushing myself booming and busting then getting angry and frustrated. I get so involved in goal setting just doing one last job I am back in the loop. Activity = pain = resentment so push back to activity. When will I stop trying to fight my pain ? Can we ever find a happy compromise ?