These past few weeks I have been slowly declining into feeling more and more depressed and vulnerable. My pain levels have flared, I have dropped 3 cups of coffee in the past 2 days, could not get into my car or work out how to put my belt on.
I have cut my work hours because I could not cope and I am struggling through each day yet everyone around me does not seem to notice. Everyone tells me how wonderfully I cope, how amazing I have been at adapting, how independent I am but I feel completely lost. I went for a Psyche assessment and he said how he wished all his assessments were so positive and I should hold a local group !!!!!!
I do not like to moan and I know maybe I should be more vocal but every body is so busy with their own lives. My daughter is in Uni though she lives at home and my son works every hour he can, my partner is going through his own crisis after retiring and I just feel adding my worries is just too much for them. I have written an action plan, I have changed my daily routine to try to spread my energy but I just feel like I am in a dark hole and all alone.
Any good advice out there that may help? has anyone else gone through this and come out the other side?
I just feel my health is in ever decreasing circle and soon I will be too ill to exist.