I've decided I am going ahead with the chemo, although it's a two week wait before my appointment because I just cannot physically go before then in my mind I keep worrying more about what if it goes untreated rather than the side effects.
I had a problem with a part of my scar yesterday it was really stining, so last night I asked hubby to have a look as it's a part of my body, tummy/pelvic line, I can't see, he said okay lets go to hospital, which panicked me as my husband is very laid back, I persuaded him to call out of hours doctor, couldn't face hours in a&e. So at 1am this morning I being prodded by a nurse and doctor, who say it is an infection and that what hubby could see was a thin layer of skin with pus underneath and once I started the antibiotics it would burst, enough to send me into light headed move (squeamish).
So I left there with a dressing and antibiotics and was told it wouldn't burst in the night, 2 antibiotics and 2 hours later it gushes, hubby is mopping up goo at 3am and has a 6am start for work poor thing, we dressed it and I emailed my oncology nurse so she could get back to me with some advice. At 9am she rings, my consultant isn't there but another consultant on the team is and wants me to go in to be checked at 12.30 and then have the wound dressed.
So arrive on the ward and it's the nurse from hell from when I was on the ward she tells me I can't wait there and sends me off to a waiting area, at 12.55 I see the consultant he is off to take a clinic and has a fit at the nurse, appently he'd been looking for me and they told him I wasn't there!
A nicer nurse took me into a room, opened the dressing squeezed out any more goo, gynae doc from ward has a look, nurse takes a swab, washes it dresses it and gives me dressings to take home.
I have to say post burst I feel better physically it's not so tender around my tummy, feel a bit sick with the antibiotics but she did say I would,
I'm worried that these post op problems mean there are cancer cells lingering and getting at me, so that has pushed me into going for the chemo. It's been tough on hubby today he finished work at 7 and is washed out, hopefully I can drive from next week and can maybe do a few hours work to take off the pressure. Fingers crossed that finally I'm on the mend, it's a tiny bit the size of a 20p that hasn't healed the rest is amazing.