It's been a very strange few weeks, no a few months actually. In january 2012 I went to my GP rolling in agony with abdominal pain, he told me he couldn't think what could be there to cause a problem, so took bloods and said go home take some pain killers and get over it. When I rang for blood results was told they were normal, in fact it seems some levels were raised, enough to indicate a problem. After another couple of visits I was so unhappy I changed doctors, but this wasn't until June 2012, my new GP sent me for an ultrasound scan, after a thorough examination and some bloods, they identified a cyst 6x4cm, and suddenly I was on a rollercoaster.
I can't have been any more fortunate than I was to get the consultant I have, amazing, listened to me, and although he recommended a full hysterectomy, foolishly I had read an article in the BMJ that hysterectomies were becoming standard proceedure for gynae probs to save money, so I dug in my heels for cyst removal and a unilateral salpingo oophorectomy, all seemed to be going so well, CT scan came back looking good, bloods were looking good, then the bombshell, the cyst had a benign outer with cancer cells within, they hoped it was all removed but may have spread to other ovary, feel sick now.
Looking for holes in the diagnosis, can't find any, asked questions and researched until I feel sick, my head is a total mess now. I don't want any of it, yet I don't like the idea of something creeping through my body and I can't see or feel it, I just want my life back how it was before. I'm angry with my first GP, I'm angry with me for expecting it to be nothing so pushing for minimal surgery.
I want them to answer the questions but don't want to hear what they say, I feel so sad, yet part of feels the urge to just get it all taken out and hope it's all gone, I really hope the CT scan of my chest is clear, fingers crossed.