just to let you know that I went for my results of the CT yesterday, yay, good news, no disease evident, phew, was getting myself convinced that it had returned, I think thats a psychological action to guard against disappointment.
After nearly 3 years clear, I got complacent, and thats when it returned, so no more complacency for me ( dont think it will make any difference, but its something I can do, as sod all else seems to make a difference!)
The onc initially said no more scans for 6 months, which worried me a bit, as my bloods dont indicate anything (stayed at 7/8 even when it returned, and only went up to 64 when I went for initial surgery- stage 3a!)
she then came back in the room and said she had changed her mind, and scan in 4 months- god knows what happened, but I am grateful, so have (the dreaded word) christmas (sorry!) all clear.
A good friend of mine lost her mum to cancer this week, so so sad, and it makes it difficult to share my news with her as she is devastated, it will wait tho.
take care you lovely ladies