Oh my goodness what a stressful time we've had!!! Dd's MRI scan is this Thursday as per the original plan!!!
I am a very stressed and sad bunny. My poor daughter absolutely broke down the other night and sobbed that she could not see what kind of a life she is going to have with this damned illness and was so despondent I could hardly keep it together. It is the first time she has given way in the two and a half years that she has been going through this. She started by saying she thought she might be a bit depressed - bless her heart - and she couldn't bring herself to say exactly what was wrong. I know her so well that with a sinking heart I guessed and she just nodded and sobbed her heart out. She feels the future is very bleak and although I do all in my power to support her it has really upset me to see her like that. I am amazed and in awe of the way she has coped until now and I feel she deserves a medal for bravery, quite frankly. With the ME as well she has been robbed of all her teenage years and she never complains, never moans and the dear girl says she might be a BIT depressed!!! I am so proud of her and I told her so. When she is reasonably well she volunteers to help others. She is not a paragon of virtue, she has her faults, but she is an amazing young woman. I did take her to see a friend who is a counsellor and that has helped a bit and she is going to talk to her Occupational Therapist to whom she was referred for the ME.
Sorry for the moan but it breaks my heart. We are both dreading the results of the scan and hope the Oncologist was right and there is nothing to worry about because if there IS something wrong and our gut feeling was right we will be less than impressed, especially as it was pretty much a case of diagnosing over the phone and NOT really listening to the patient!!!