Last time I blogged it was January and I hoped to return to work very soon afterwards. The process took a lot longer than expected as I was offered a different job within the same team and it was very difficult to decide what to do. I'm frightened the new list of duties won't be feasible when I have to go through more chemotherapy and I might have to give up earlier than I would had I retained my old duties.
I'm now on my fourth week back at work and have been told I have to sign away my old job or look elsewhere in the organisation. I've enjoyed the new tasks so far but they are quite a challenge as I'm out of the office most days having meetings. Thank goodness I didn't lose my hair. It somehow makes the thought of meeting new people a bit daunting. My old job seemed so much more familiar and comfortable.
I could go down a formal grievance process as what has happened contravenes The Equality Act 2010 but who wants to cause a fuss about work when life is going to be short and it's enough to deal with the cancer? You might tell me that I'm well enough to make a stand to represent all disabled people as work can be tough for them.
Going back to work and a full salary again does have its advantages. I'm on a staged return to work so took myself off for a long weekend skiing last week. I was shocked at how much the journey over the last year dented my confidence and it took a couple of days to believe in myself and know for sure that for the moment I'm perfectly well, strong and fit. Whooshing down impossibly steep slopes at great speed was a great stress-reliever and I forgot about my worries at work and indeed the cancer. For four wonderful days I was normal again!
I'd love to hear from you guys what I should do about my work-based dilemma .
Loads of love, Annie