Bonjour all my lovely teal sisters out there. I hope you are doing well, whatever the weather is chucking at you today. Despite the news, we have not been washed away by floods. We're more shrivelled around the edges from the heat. I've even got crispy bits.
I'm in the dreaded mud pool again. It's a very dark and lonely place. After the carbo/caelyx fiasco I managed just one dose of hycamtin and then the blood counts plummeted even further down. Got shingles too on top of it all. So no chemo for 3 weeks and I am so upset as we could have had our 3 weeks in UK at our grandson's 2nd birthday, my best friend's birthday, travelling around seeing friends and family and then my pre-70th birthday party. All planned and paid for the same three weeks and all cancelled because onc said I should not go and start the new treatment instead. Well, there you go. More bad luck dumped on me. It just never stops.
So, whilst in this gloom some dear friends, who are the best people in the world, offered to pay for a flight back to blighty for me so that I could be at the birthday party for little Max today but of course that's so expensive so I had to say no, but they have invited me to go spend some time with them and just chill by the pool and be waited on hand and foot so that - hopefully - my globules rouge and blanc will rally round and make me well enough for chemo again. After some thought - at least 2 seconds - I said yes as I can't do a flipping thing at the moment as so breathless and useless. Hubby will stay home and DIY himself senseless.
Therefore, lovely ladies, I shall be far too busy with doing sod all to communicate with you until at least next weekend. I do hope you understand. Seriously - I shall still be logging in to read your posts now and then but not every day. I hope you understand. Not being back in England has hit me hard. And what was it all for? Nothing. I should have insisted to wait until our return as I know the beast is marching on as my lumpy lymphs are increasing all the time. They are a good warning for me. I dread having a CA125 test done.
Take care of yourselves and I'll try to get out of this mud pool asap.
Lots of love, Kryssy xxxx