Hi everyone, there is no need to reply to this message but I just want to write how I am feeling.
I booked a holiday ten days ago, two weeks in Turkey 5* all inclusive in June. Since booking it I have thought nothing but dark thoughts and been unable to sleep for fear of passing in the night.
Am on caelyx and my body aches all over. Gp gave me morphine last week but I never told him my true feelings. I cry a lot. I’m thinking why am I bothering trying to fight this awful condition that will get me in the end. Then I feel guilty as two of our precious ladies on here have been given devastating news recently.
I know my husband wants to tell me to stop being stupid and I know he is right. I just have to get out from under this black cloud.
Thanks for letting me have this moan. I’ll be back soon. Love to all. Xxx