I'm 4 weeks post op and see the surgeon on 4 th Jan. Every morning I wake up shaking with anxiety. What if, what if, what if ...... What if we can't afford to stay in our house, what if my iliostomy can't be reversed, what Chemo, I'm self-employed and afraid I won't be able to go back to work-in fact I don't even want to, what if.... I can't stop myself. I've never been depressive before but this is different. I feel better in the evening but don't want to go to bed as I know I will wake up in fear in the morning. Can anyone relate to this please?