Hello to All-
I hope everyone had a lovely Holiday! I just came back from my ONC appointment for a recheck. He said everything looks and felt fine. He said he wants to see me in 3 months. Also blood work every month. I was happy that nothing is rearing its ugly head but at the same time its only been 2 1/2 months since I finished chemo. I know the statistics. I really started to feel very alone and nervous. My ONC said try to not think about cancer but I said its very hard to do. I really started to cry when I got home. I feel like a ship lost at sea. I know I should feel grateful which I do but that ominous feeling is hanging right over my head. I don't discuss with family as I want to be as upbeat as possible and not be the anchor dragging everyone down. As a mother I don't want them all to worry.
Do any of you feel as I do? How are you coping? How do you get on with life and not feel everything has changed and you are in uncharted territory, always on watch for a possible reoccurance.
Blessings to all for a happy and healthy New Year1