I am so glad 95% of my shopping is complete for Xmas, and my op is in 8 days time. I feel so sore walking round all I can manage now is pottering in the house and sitting down! I am getting scared what the op will show my symptoms of bad indigestion, bowel and urine issues and aching hips have been there for 2 years plus, plus the size of the cyst too, but I have no option but to face this head on.
Wednesday I will also find out if I still have a job, a restructure is happening in my dept 16 jobs for 20 of us. I am signed off sick but was asked if I was well enough to go in on Wednesday for the outcome. I have said no, I would like a phone call but now I am churning over if that is the right thing. I guess part of me is not wanting to go in thinking if I am made redundant especially with all this going on with my health I would rather be at home to receive that news than be at work. I will be devasted to lose my job and even more so to think I will need to apply for a new job once I am up to it in a few months time, assuming of course I dont need chemo.
Feeling very unsure and out of control.