My story starts about 5 years ago and to cut a long story short I have had a boarderline ovarian tumour removed last October. I have had a follow up appointment in Jan and they think the tumour cells have got into a fluid. I am therefore having blood tests and scans but besides all that I have noticed a big change in myself... I used to be quite a positive person but now I feel really depressed and I don't leave the house for about 4/5 days at a time. I have rang work and told them I am not well but really I am afraid to leave the house, something comes over me in the morning.
My marriage is on the verge of breaking, my husband doesn't understand the illness and does not even wish to understand it or support me, I think he's a bit bored of it to be honest. The whole thing has made us so distant we won't be able to get it back on track. He has strayed in the past as I couldn't give him the love and attention and so I have lost all trust in him. We constantly argue and I constantly check his phone because im so parnoid he's up to something, i have found recently he's been chatting to several girls and bitches about me constantly. I don't understand who to turn to for help and I feel like I'm losing the will the live but I have to stay strong and focussed for my 4 year daughter.