I haven't written in awhile as couldn't log in.Im still here and kicking and trying to "Live for the Moment".Its the most difficult thing to achieve.There are upsides to it though because now I say to my hubby,I'm living for the moment so you decide what we should have for dinner later,do the shopping and if I'm still alive and kicking I'll cook the dinner ha ha.
I'm still on Orlaparib,a year on since January.My cancer at the moment is stable and in fact has disappeared from a few areas.Thank God for research and innovation.
Living with an acute illness on a daily basis can become a very focused occupation and eventhough you try to ignore what you have ,the illness is still at the back of your mind.There are times I've felt so good that I've forgotten I have cancer and those moments to me are precious.
So what do I do to make myself less focused on my illness.Ive taken up walking as much as I can on a daily basis.I started out on little walks but now I do 5-6km daily.I knit,reading a pattern keeps your mind occupied.Most of all I treat myself to a good auld rant at the end of the day.We all need to vent our fears and frustration and finding the person or place to vent this can be difficult. I hate venting to someone and getting the reply "I know,I Know,because usually they don't friggin know,how could they.
For all those going through treatment at the moment ,my thoughts are with you and to all those living in fear,you are not alone,.xxx