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Please can somebody help me ? I have suffered with severe memory hoarding for the past seven years...most of the time I can deal with it! But since the new year it's taken a turn for the worse and I have no life anymore I am constantly frightened of all my thoughts as I don't want to forget absolutely anything! I write everything down in my phone because I don't want to forget anything! Is there any help out there because I can't go on like this..im suffering from the moment I wake up till I go to sleep at night! I am so very tired and sick of life like this! I don't understand? Why me...I wouldn't hurt a fly...im 45 years old and I don't want to live the rest of my life like this

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Hey Andy ....

Just saw your post ... sounds like youre having a rough time of it mate...

how does this manifest itself Andy ? Only reason I ask is that I may be going through similar similar too ... are you being hyper vigilant with your thoughts -observing them and trying to keep tabs on them, keeping them 'in order' ?

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Andywish in reply to OCDad

Thankyou for your reply mate...yes I do try and keep my thoughts in order but its a bit more complex than that! I can keep them in order for one day no problem...but I track back from previous days/weeks and worst of all months which becomes extremely hard work and if I can't keep these in order I completely shut down with crushing anxiety...almost like I'm losing my mind! Even though I consciously know the thoughts are irrelevant, my mind just won't accept it. Also I keep track of an event or when I went somewhere or did something ie, getting petrol or which supermarket I went to on a certain day

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OCDad in reply to Andywish

And I thought I was the only one..... where are you based bud

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VONWHO in reply to Andywish

Ignoring it,it is the all that i can tell you,you have to force yourself to ignore it,you have to do other things you have to do,When the thought appears, force yourself not to think about it

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Transcending_OCD in reply to Andywish

Hello all, this has been a significant problem for me too. I had no idea this was being experienced by others... I’ve had various OCD manifestations over the years but this one started around 26 and has been going on for the past 5 years or so. Not sure why it started, but I would suddenly get the impulse to replay events of the day or recent days/weeks etc. Could be totally humdrum stuff, but if I couldn’t remember precisely, it’d cause acute anxiety and I couldn’t let it go until I pieced together a series of events. As a ridiculous example, I could get to work and suddenly think: when I got dressed this morning, did I put my socks on before my shirt, or vice versa? Or did I leave the house at 8.33 or 8.43? Or when I was walking to the train station, was the car that went past blue or red?

All totally inconsequential, but if I couldn’t remember it was almost as if I was losing my memory. And to prove to myself that I wasn’t, I was forcing myself to remember events.

Please know that you are not alone with this, and while I don’t have an immediate solution I hope we can all take some comfort from our solidarity.

Hello, I do the same thing and it's torture. I'm relieved to see someone else post about this, although I'm so sorry you're going through it because I know too how horrible and exhausting it is. My compulsion to replay events (including the tiniest things from days, weeks, months ago) gets worse in the evenings. My anxiety also means that when I replay them I feel a kind of detachment from them. I'm seeing someone for CBT at the moment which I would recommend. They are working with me on something called ERP (google it for info). I'm also looking into support groups for OCD, as I've felt very alone with it for years. I'm not an expert in any of this therapy stuff, but there is support out there and it will be possible to overcome, I have hope.

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Transcending_OCD in reply to Friendofthewhippets

I’m sorry to hear you are going through this too. OCD seems to be poorly understood — especially the degree to which it causes stress and exhaustion.

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Ignoring it,it is the all that i can tell you,you have to force yourself to ignore it,you have to do other things you have to do,When the thought appears, force yourself not to think about it

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