Ocd surviver

[Mishrasunny]

I am sharing my story to my family please read it. I feel i am not alone now. We will together defeat this disorder . I would like to share my story , in school time i was a good student. I used to come 1st rank in class in 5,6,7,8,9 and 10 standard. I got 85% in my 10th std. And i was a good cricketer.everyone praised my batting. They had suggested you have good future in cricket. During my school time i used to be very calm relaxed and tension free. I was enjoying my life but After that due to anxiety,stress, fear i couldn't concentrate on my study and daily life routine and i broken down i got 63% in my 12th std. After that i did diploma in mechanical engineering but due to ocd i took too much time to brush, bath and i got late for college and tuition. I had fear that something bad will happen with me . i became so doubtful nature on me. In class room during lecture i couldn't concentrate. In my last year diploma i got 64%. Then i did my graduation in mechanical engineering degree. In my degree college my perfomance was not good at all after 2nd year with 4 atkt subject i entered in 3rd year n i got 3 drop means 3times failed in same class i lost my hopes and drinking smoking weed. One day i boozed and smoked sheesha and weed together and i got panic attack so i thought i i am going to die today. I admitted to hospital for two days but doctors did normal treatment and discharged me .but all this it started coming suicidal thought in my mind then i went to one doctor and i said i want to commit suicide he was general physician so he recommends to psychiatrist and then psychiatrist diagnosed that i have ocd so he started treatment with medication now i got relaxed and anxiety decreases. i cleared my 3rd year and last year of engineering study. I got 53% in my last year degree. I was quit the cricket but now started. After that i got job at one of private company now i am working for a private company for last 3 months.due to this pandemic i have in my home in lockdown. Now my symptoms are decreased i can focus on my work. But still sometimes thoughts come that something bad will happen its not totally gone yet so i am bappy that i have friend like you now i am feeling relaxed thats all my story. I hope you will read it and respond on it.