I have suffered with pure ocd for a long time and have bouts of wellness and relapse. I'm currently having a bit of a relapse - cannot stop ruminating on a false memory - many years ago I got drunk whilst I was looking after my niece and nephew- my ex boyfriend was there at the time too. I woke up the next morning and couldn't remember a thing!
I have this really distressing thought that I harmed the kids when I was drunk - even though the kids are now grown up and have no memory of this night whatsoever.
My ocd tells me I've sexually abused them, in particular my niece who now suffers with mental health problems. My ocd tells me that her mental health problems are all my fault. I want to keep asking her about it to relieve my thoughts but she has been asked before if she has any recollection of that night but she doesn't .
Please help I'm suffering xx