I think I would be okay if I could get past the feeling of saying something inappropriate or horrible. I notice that it’s worse when my anxiety is high. I should be able to have a normal conversation without having to replay it in my head to make sure I haven’t said anything offensive or inappropriate. I’ve been reading on social anxiety and wonder if I have that as well. Before this , I use to have conversations all the time and never worried about what I said . I just carried on with my day , now it’s an everyday of mental checking to make sure I didn’t say anything .......
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I feel this too, and it's horrible. For me, any conversation can cause this mental checking, but the worst I've experienced is when colleagues wanted to go to the pub after work. I usually avoid it now but I tried going a few times, and the "volume" and intensity of my thoughts were so bad afterwards (replaying everything and analysing), it was unbearable and made me feel sick. Although it's not nice to experience, your post gave me some comfort that somebody else has felt similarly. Sending good vibes your way!
Yes it is awful! I’ve become super careful of the things I say and even though i know I wouldn’t say a certain thing there’s always the doubt or uncertainty, like the what If’s..I miss the person I use to be, the past couple of months I’ve been dealing with this and I really just want to get back to my normal self and not have to overthink everything .
I used to leave converastions and ask my partner if I was nice enough or if I said anything offensive. I would ask for reassurance and then nit-pick my own words and badger myself for saying anything that could be offensive, I would compulse knock three times and be filled with self hate.
I went to therapy and had to say offensive things about strangers under my breath to myself and it was so painful. I mean stomach tightness, palpatations, and feeling like I was stuck in mud. But after a while the exposures started to work.
You will never be the person you were are should be. You are a good person having perfectly normal OCD thoughts!
Thankyou for those kind words. Lately I’ve been feeling down because I don’t know many people who struggle with this, so there’s not really anyone I can go to. I’m not even sure how it got to this point, although I’ll admit I am a bit anti social so idk if it’s part of social anxiety as well.
It could be a combo of both...I love to talk and get deep into conversations but my ocd also loves to over analyze anything I do and find the potential danger in it. You will find your grove again and ocd will find a new thing to bully you on. Just remember it’s not your fault you have anxiety! Your allowed to be you.
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