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Ocd and anxiety??

Anon0000
Anon0000

Recently I have had anxiety attacks due to having having these disturbing intrusive thoughts and repetitive phrases I say in my head when it is triggered by a certain thing, I don’t have the physical urge but the urge to think about it. I have a fear of having schizophrenia or psychosis and I think it has come to the point where my ocd thoughts are making me paranoid where I have a fear of hearing voices, now I can almost hear a whisper this certain phrase what I’ve been constantly repeating in my head.

When it is quiet that’s when it is triggered. I don’t hear these ‘voices’ when I’m occupied but when I identify that it is quiet and especially in my room, my brain starts to act up.

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It does sound like OCD. I think most of us with OCD hear a voice in our head, but it is not 'hearing voices' schizophrenia or paranoia. It is simply OCD.

It's also true that OCD fills in empty gaps, so when you are busy and concentrating on something it isn't always so intrusive. It's important to keep busy with OCD, but the problem is that it can interfere with your ability to concentrate and do things. And then that leaves a gap for OCD to sneak in.

People often think they're going mad with OCD. It can be very distressing, but it really isn't madness. It can feel like your brain is stuck in a loop though with the same intrusive thought or phrase or words going round.

Anon0000
Anon0000
in reply to Sallyskins

It’s weird and scary where it’s come to the point where I can almost hear a little whisper, whether I’m in my room or I’m public as soon as I think about it.

Samantha12
Samantha12
in reply to Anon0000

Try not to worry too much. My OCD changes, so if I see or hear about something horrible suddenly I'm imagining thoughts like those. Similar to you once i read that OCD is ok bit hearing voices isn't it was like my own thoughts became that voice egging me on to do something awful.....I never have and never will do those things but it is so terrifying to have those thoughts! Medication and CBT have helped immensely. Please Try to get help!

Anon0000
Anon0000
in reply to Samantha12

Omg I started to get worried when reading this 😩 I’m becoming so paranoid if I’m hearing things too, it’s like a tiny tiny whisper. And I have booked my CBT and I’m waiting to get seen to by a psychiatrist. But I just feel so impatient and I keep worrying.

Samantha12
Samantha12
in reply to Anon0000

Have you read any of the CBT self help books recommended by IAPT? That was a good starting point for me whilst I was waiting for cbt

Hi Anon0000 this is so me! It’s so scary isn’t it? I do know how you feel av been like this for about a week are so now and it is horrible I think that al go crazy lose my mind then do something and not know I’m doing it it scares the life out of me! I really do feel for you my doctor told me it was anxiety but I I’m sure I have ocd but he’s the doctor! I hope you get better soon and all this subsides for you I really do... all the luck in the world to you and well wishes big hugs ❤️

Everything that you've described is exactly how I feel!! All of this happened for me when I learned about schizophrenia and psychosis in my abnormal psych course and it's been driving me nuts! I always feel on edge, am hyperaware and I always scrutinize my own behavior wondering whether what i'm doing is normal or not. I've already had three mental health professionals tell me that I'm not schizophrenic or psychotic, but I still can't shake the thoughts. Hang in there though! OCD and anxiety are a rough pair, but you're stronger than the thoughts. :)

Hidden
Hidden
in reply to saxman20

Omg I seriously could have written this. How are you coping? It’s the worst!!! I’ve had 4 mental health professionals tell me I’m fine.. ugh.

saxman20
saxman20
in reply to Hidden

Hey! I’m so sorry you feel this way too. It literally consumes my thoughts all day and distracts me to the point that I have a hard time enjoying myself around others. I try my best to deal with the thoughts by distracting myself with my favorite music or being around my friends. A lot of the times I pray, but if you’re not into that, meditation is also super helpful (and something I do too!). As for the actual fears themselves (like fear of losing touch with reality or having hallucinations and delusions), I remind myself of what the professionals said, how if I were losing touch with reality I literally wouldn’t be asking myself if I were, and i try stopping myself from “listening” for hallucinations or freaking out about delusions. I always remind myself that the human mind is strong and that I am too, and that I am in control of my thoughts and my brain. One more thing that helps me manage the fear (and it’s a super scary thing, but it kind helps alleviate the worry) is the thought and realization that if I were to ever develop a psychotic illness and subsequently lose myself, I wouldn’t really realize that, yet I’d be okay because of modern medicine and the support systems around me. Some things are out of my control, and worrying won’t help me control anything. I hope this helps! Speaking to a professional is also very important and i might go on SSRIs to better manage my OCD and anxiety. Best of luck to you, you’ll be in my prayers!

Lee270780
Lee270780
in reply to saxman20

Hey,

Im struggling with this also at the minute, its like i am doubting my own being if that makes any sense, im constantly thinking “what ifs” like if i pick up my phone i question it like “ do i really want to pick up my phone” like i cant make a decision to do it its really bugging me! I was looking for something to watch on tv last night and i literally struggled to choose something because my anxious brain is too busy talking about “how can you decide what to watch? “ or “ how do i know when i want to have a drink” has anyone else experienced this type of odd symptom? I think possibly my brain safeguarding me as im scared i might do something out of my control which i obviously wont.

Lee

saxman20
saxman20
in reply to Lee270780

Hi Lee,

I’m very familiar with what you’re experiencing. At one point I found myself doing that too! I always find it reassuring to remember that whenever I get worried about losing contact with reality–and become very aware of what I’m doing/my surroundings/etc.–I wouldn’t be so hyperaware if I actually were losing touch with reality. I hope that’s helpful!

Lee270780
Lee270780
in reply to saxman20

Its very helpful thank you. To know that all the weird sensations, thoughts, and what i can only call mental tics (replying to people in my head with sarcastic comments or calling people names) i have been having recently aren’t just me losing it is a comfort to me. 2 weeks ago i was just a normal 38 year old dad who had some health anxiety this has tipped my world upside down to the point i can barely get out of bed most of the day and spend my day looking for reassurance online.

Thanks

Lee

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