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in the next couple of days,im going to have to make the dession nobody wants to take.

if I do id like to thank all you good people for welcombing me into your world,you are

all so good and kind.thank you all.

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Mumofhocd6 years ago

Peekanese PLEASE don’t do this. I have read your story and I feel so bad for you that you haven’t been able to access the help you so obviously need. But please DON’T GIVE UP!!! There is still hope for you, but you need to reach out to someone - anyone - and say “this is how I’m feeling, please help me get the help I need”. When you’re feeling as low as you clearly are, it’s hard to feel anyone could possibly understand, and it’s hard to muster the energy or the courage to talk to someone - but you absolutely must. I’m in New Zealand so no location-specific info but at the very least your probation officer should be able to refer you for help if you ask? Or simply your GP? Please stay in touch on here to let us know how you’re getting on. People care, they - we - really do.

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hi mum,for the past 3ys ive been on probation,it all started.well.ive explaned before,but say a bit incase yove mist it.well I live alone I a buitiful detached house it taken me allot

of kind work,by the way,uptill just ouer 4ys ago I enjoyed goon relations will naubours

by the way with my house being detached nobody should have the right to pry into my

windows.anyway my sister died,i menchened it recently,up till then ive allways had kind

of ocd.ive senced something was wrong with me,every thing had to be perfect,even at

work.it errant me prase by the way I was given jobs that needed that I was a engineer .

I also had other ocd traits.sorry to be so lenthy,but,after marge died I changed for no

apparent reason,every so often I wouid stand at my patio window which I allway thought

to be secure,anyway a nice lady naubour aproched me and said peek,i sore you standing

with you p; out she made a joke about it and we departed ,none the worsed,i felt ok but

still wonderd wy I did it.you can get the jist now I hope.police arrived one day I had never

been to a police station inmy life,im then 70ish I was dragged ot of my house ifront of every one,this nise ladys niece bytheway is a police with local forse.i was fine put on probation have to sigh sex offenders reg.by then people who had hesrd of this were

trying their best to see me walking close to my windows so on.my life by then was falling

apart I tried every were for help doc,woodlands hospital mental hosp.you name it no one

wanted to know my ocd allthou them being informed one sister suiaside throu ocd.i have

also a young niese washin nands type.after my 3ys up by 2 days police arrived someone else had taken photos of me with telephoto camera from say about 400ys away I had brocken mt order I lwas lock up I police station I day then reilisted on bail.for triel.this coming week I stand trial and almost sertanly will get 3 yrs in jail fined could be 1500pns

I wish someone could under stand,i have dun no one any harm exept myself.this ocd takes

no prisoners so my only choise is what I said,i love life and people,but I carnet spend time

in prisen or courts or police stations by the way our prisons,and I know are dirty and degrading.so that's it in a nutshell,thanks for your kind thoughts hope every one else who

reed will not say ha hes a flaser and just under stand how ocd can rounen a persons life

peekeneese

Sallyskins6 years ago

Don't do this. Go to your GP, your probation officer, the local hospital Accident and Emergency, and tell them you are having a crisis.

I'm sure that at the moment you are grieving for your sister and that makes you feel worse, and more vulnerable.

Always remember that if you stand in front of your patio doors you are not concealed and you can't be private, unless you pull the curtains. Don't blame other people, just remember that your privacy matters. I don't suppose there was any intention to cause offence, but it would surely be worth discussing this with your probation officer.

Grieving for your sister is going to make you feel bad, but though you won't forget her it will get easier. Do get help and though it's difficult to persevere when you are feeling so low, don't take no for an answer.

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