Hi, I have not yet been diagnosed with OCD. However, I have suspected I may have the condition for a 4 years. I personally have a fear of becoming sick or people around me becoming sick, more specifically vomiting. (that was very difficult for me to write) my 'physical' compulsions consist of touching different objects in my daily routine. For example, when I walk my dog I must touch a specific tree branch in the same place with the same fingers.
The daytime isn't too much of a problem. As I am quite young I live with my Mum and my twin sister. As a routine, my sister would go upstairs for a shower, I would then follow and perform what I would say we're the most 'important' actions. For example pushing each one of my draws in with the same amount of pressure and in the same place. This would be very painful. In my night time routine it consisted of 19 'physical' compulsions! Once they were finished I required myself to recite every person, or animal I cared for or could come into contact with. This included all of my school year, my friends, their families and pets and my family members and pets. I would then have to recite everything that I didn't want to happen to them. For example getting hurt. Overall from the time I go upstairs to when I can go to sleep is around 3 hours, which is ridiculous as I have very stressful school days. Around 3 months ago, I realised it was starting to effect my school grades. So, reluctantly, I decided to reach out to my mother. She is a paramedic however so saw things from a very medical prespective. Whereas as to me it is part of who I am. My mother decided it was a good idea to tell my twin sister. My sister and I are very close. When she was told about this problem of mine she acted a lot differently than what I had hoped. She thought I was attention seeking. This was very hurtful for me, as if you are reading this you may know it is not something you can control. As a consequence I stopped talking about it to them. One of my friends had previously noticed me repeatedly touching certain objects and became increasingly worried. So I let her in as well hoping she could offer me some support at school. There problem is many people think OCD is hand washing etc. , however I had experience a very different thing. Many people don't understand. So then I stopped talking to anybody. My obsession is gradually taking over again. This is me reaching our for help in a different form. Any suggestions on what to do?