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[jessie_lopresti]

hello, I am new to this support, and wanted to introduce myself.

I had severe ocd for a long time, and finally got help at the anxiett disorders center in Hartford about 2 years ago. I was not able to function anymore and knew it was time to get treatment. it was hard but I worked very hard to get better, and I did overcome it.

however, some symptoms still try to creep back from time to time, and I try my best to resist, but OCD will always be a part of me.

I am currently in my first adult real relationship with someone that I love, and I find my ocd and obsessive thoughts and self doubt are hindering my happiness and the quality of my relationship. I doubt whether I love him and obsess over it daily, even though I know in my heart I am madly in love with him. I torture myself and constantly seen reassurance that he loves me too. I feel so alone and crazy, and I dont want my anxiety to ruin my relationship. he is so understanding and supportive, but I feel bad for putting him through this, and I worry he will eventually get sick of me. does anyone else feel this way, or am I truly alone?