I've been told I suffer with anxiety and depression for couple of years, but I've never opened up about my somewhat ritualistic behaviours. I avoid certain numbers and do things such as walk a certain number of steps, and if I break the pattern I have to start again, or else something will happen to my family. But I don't have a fear of germs in particular, although I do have to have some things organised a certain way otherwise they will be lost and I will fail my test that day or I'll be late for work and get fired.
I know it sounds crazy, but I need people to reassure me a lot as well, as I think I'm offending them or going to cause harm to them or their self-esteem. I like to trple check things, and feel better for doing things in multiples of three. It's getting a lot more obvious now and severe, and I'm worried people will notice??? I don't know if its anxiety or OCD or what, but I feel crazy!