I have a question - does anyone else experience things like this? I'm just trying to find out if this a common OCD trait, or if it's just me.
Something happens - like a thought, or an impulse, or you do something, that you think is bad, and it's the kind of thought/impulse/action that you know (if you do eventually decide it really is bad), will send you into a panic/depression/feeling like it's the end of the world and you're an awful person. Then, you spend the next few hours/days/months trying to decide if it WAS bad. You can only find rest and relief once you have definitively decided it WAS OK. You'll study it from every angle to make sure, and keep going over it in your head.
Is that an experience that anyone is familiar with?
It's really good to have found somewhere where I can ask these questions.