Hi all, having a day where's it's all getting to me today . Went for x-rays of hands and feet yesterday and had lovely caring gentle radiologists this time, unlike last time where I thought she must have been trained at the Marquis de Sade school of radiology! Got a call from NOAR this am asking me to go for my 20 yr follow-up to help their research. Brought it all into focus and made me angry again that the rheumy felt she could suddenly decide I didn't have any inflammatory arthritis after all this time and made me doubly determined to fight it and ask to be referred to my original consultant who is an expert in the zero-neg/uSpa field (many thanks for the tips earthwitch). A bit later I got a call from OT to make an appointment and after I put the phone down I fell apart. Just had another call from GP surgery saying they've been asked to prescribe amitryptiline by rheumy to help with the pain I have. Politely asked them to hang on to the script until I've seen GP next Tuesday to request 2nd opinion. Even crosser now as my understanding was that rheumy was waiting for x-rays before confirming her opinion on what's causing the increased symptoms but she must have written to my GP straight after our appointment last week. Result - fell apart again. I know tomorrow's another day and I'll hopefully feel a little better but right now life looks a bit bleak.