hi . i`m so fed up with this illness and being single . is this how my life is going to be ,? grow old fast and alone , I've become obsessed that I don't have a partner, its really starting to make me feel sad and just fed up .
does anybody else ,after juggle single life with this illness ?
i`ve done all the internet dating sites . this gives me a understanding how normal people live there lifes ,, everybody is looking for someone , who likes country walks , mountian climbing , sky diving , running , or even going to the gym 4 times a week ,, i dont want or cant do these things .. saying that , i find making contact and talking to others ok , the problem is when we arrange a meet , the date normally ends very quickly ,, with , oh !!! is that the time , i will after get going , i will be in touch , then out the nearest door ..
what confidence i did have before this illness as taken the rest away and left me with very low self esteem ..
talk about how depressed this illness makes me feel at times , if i ever find a partner will she ever understand this illness ? will she understand the fatigue , the lack of energy .. i`m only 42 i shouldnt be like this ,
how on earth will i find a nice g/f ,, soon as she sees me hobble in the room and groan and moan when ever i move , she`ll just think , he`s no good .. "hopeless"
. when speaking to the last lady i met on the dating site , she went into detail , how good sex and high passion makes a good relationship work , hence to say when she met me , she never made contact again , did she see , no high passion and sparks in the bedroom with me , i think so .. .
i will just after face facts , , nobody will want a life with someone with this illness ..
rant over steve