Hi all, I am riding in the London 100 on Sunday which I signed up for last August. At the time I had started Humira in May after around 3 years of not being able to walk.
For those three years I talked myself into believing that my body was worse than useless, I hated it. Hated it for turning against itself, for changing physically, for causing me pain.
So when I got Humira and could control my symptoms I decided I needed a challenge. A challenge I hadn't done before, something kind to my joints and one that would make me fall in love with my body again, appreciate it. I vowed that I would no longer take my body for granted, I started to see my body as a gift, one that I had assumed would always be fine, but isn't and so I need to adapt.
So I signed up to ride 100 miles for Arthritis Research UK, to help in a small way to one of the charities that helped me. It was their leaflets that I found in my GP surgery the first time I went for blood tests checking for RA. They educated me.
I have been cycling for a few years now, I have adapted to any joint pain, gel filled gloves, fuelling properly and cutting out inflammatory foods.
Yesterday I went to collect my rider number and felt so alive! So excited! Nervous too, nervous that my joints will let me down on the day and then I will let down all the people who have sponsored me, nervous that I won't finish.
But I have an advantage, I know this is in my mind. I have survived arthritis flares so i know I can do this. I hope to show myself that I can still do things despite having this illness and that life isn't always about we what can't do, wish me luck!!