3rd week of mtx. Woke up today feeling pretty rubbish as in hungover rubbish, tired and emotional. Got dressed then felt more depressed looking at how bloated I am and how much weight I have gained thanks to the steroids I am needing.
A lovely day outside but have to be careful in the sun as im still sunsensitive. Not sure if this is currently down to the meds or the PsA.
Im still swollen, stiff, in pain, exhausted and incredibly bored with my life atm. "Why is this disease so crappy" I feel like screaming but can't do that or have a really good cry that I need before my Daughter leaves the house. They are fully aware of how I am feeling but I try to
hide the emotions as I know how much it affects them.
Yes im feeling damn sorry for myself and I pray to God every day for this to get better and have my life back as it was.
The Tina that was slimmer, fitter and had a zest for life who would run round looking and caring after others.
This probably sounds like most of your own experiences on this forum and I do apologise if it offends anyone but I know that I can offload on here hopefully without being judged.
I hope that today at least finds some of you well and relatively pain free and the beautiful weather helps get you through the day x