Hi All,
Quick update - I'm writing to take my mind off myself as I'm currently having a crisis of confidence. So far I've managed not to saw my arm off to get away from the shingles itch/pain/burn. Would be difficult anyway I guess as the second newer patch is on my shoulder blade so hard to reach to get the saw in there Although I'm very much not enjoying it, I think I'm quite lucky that it's where it is - I'd imagine it would be worse on my body. Hopefully I'll never get to find out. Feeling much less ill thankfully but have a constant headache and general bleurgh feeling from the anti-virals. Which brings me to the confidence crisis thing. I've got my interview this afternoon and feeling very unimpressive at the mo. All I really want to do is stay snuggled up in the warm in slob clothes getting better. Instead I have to dress up in something smart that is likely to aggravate the rash and slap some face paint on to try and cover the pallor and go look interested and interesting. Doesn't help that I don't have prior experience of some of the aspects of the job (but bucket-loads of others) so will be an element of winging it. Deep down I know that I've never yet done a job that I didn't master but the way I was treated by the last outfit I briefly worked for when we had our awful family crisis has really knocked my confidence. The nasty demons are busy telling me that nobody wants to employ a middle-aged crip when they can have a youngster with all their physical faculties intact. Typing this I know I'm being a numpty but we can't switch off our subconscious without chemical assistance and that might be a bit counter-productive under the circumstances. Wish me luck! xx