Today has been so tough. Bit of background informationabout me. I'm 32 years old and was diagnosed with rhumatoid arthritis when I was 24. Being diagnosed with something like that at such a young age is heart breaking, before my diagnosis I haven't had any problems with my joints and was relatively healthy the only significant thing going on in my life at the time was an absolutely appalling job with adults with challenging behaviours and learning disabilities. The whole place, job, management is part of my life I'd rather forget about. Initially I was signed off sick for weeks with work related stress in which time I was prescribed diazepam for muscle spasms, I feel management forces me into leaving my job, low and behold 3 months later I'm diagnosed with RA. Coincidence or what? My consultant has been discussing methotrexatefor about a year now and I've been desperate for another baby which hasn't happened after lots of research and a lot of thinking I've come away today with a prescription for methotexate and a very big lump in my throat. It all seems so final, no more babies, not able to have a drink and enjoy myself if I wanted to. I just hope I see some positive results and my pain and emotions improve. I hate RA!!