Today I've had a couple of 'wrong' thoughts. Not craves, nothing like so strong, but just kind of, 'well stopping smoking was really simple, I could always do that again if need be.' I was really REALLY taken by surprise by this, because I really believe that the reason I found this quit so simple was because I just didn't consider the possibility of ever smoking again. End of. So to even vaguely think about the fact I *could* do it again was just, well, nonsense. But still a bit scary.
So this evening I've taken a little time to consider positives again And I think that ALL the positives added together (I don't smell horrid, I have spare money to treat my little family more, my health and fitness is improved, my skin is TONS better etc etc....) add up to this. I feel like I have this whole positive outlook on life. I can do anything. I can win MAJOR battles, under my own steam. I feel like myself, as a child, (remember, when anything was possible? When maybe I WOULD win a pony in a competition and end up riding at the horse of the year show/write a massively influential novel/be Mary Poppins one day - not play her, BE her! etc etc) only with added realism and grown-up-ability. It's fabulous.
AND I can offer people a lift in my car without feeling terrible. AND I can spend time with non-smoking friends, not feeling like I'm in a rush to leave so I can smoke. Bonus!
There. I feel better already. Thanks for being here, forum friends!
Now I'm going to treat myself to yesterday's episode of Banished. Julian Rhind-Tutt and I go back a long way...ah, yes, Mac in the Green Wing shall forever be My Mr Right...